Yesterday's blog entry, or "vlog" entry (I don't like the word vlog) was probably the most difficult entry I have done to date. It wasn't that the material was new, but the medium I was using was new.
I worked on a outline script for three days, and ended up using none of it. A forced script didn't feel natural. In my video I had no words planned and everything was thought of as it came. This is important for me because if I slow down, whether doing a vlog, ahem, video blog or presentation I will begin to analyze what I am saying. At the speed I talk my mind has no time to nit pick at what I have said.
Starting the entry yesterday was difficult. I simply did not know how to begin. I started and restarted at least twenty times because nothing felt right. How does one greet people that he has talked to only in text for almost six months now? I didn't have the answer and it resulted in numerous restarts.
I found this interesting because this level of uncomfortableness is identical to what personal interactions are like. Starting a conversation is something I rarely do and it felt the same way as making that recording.
Another interesting tid bit is that I have not, and will not, watch my video. I have no idea what I said, what stories I used, or if I made any mistakes. I'd like to know, but watching myself, and seeing myself, is something that I avoid at all costs. In my mind I have an image of me and I think I know how I sound, but seeing me and hearing me in reality is a stark contrast. Every time I hear myself I ask, "I sound like that?"
I do plan on having more video blog entries in the future, but I will need to think of what topics to cover that I can do better with the spoken word over writing about it.