Thursday, May 12, 2011

I Want Candy... Or At Least I Used To

An odd thing has happened over the past year or so. Growing up I was a candy fiend. Skittles, Smarties, 3 Musketeers, and anything else in the Candy aisle was a one way ticket to bliss. Without realizing it though, times have changed.

In about an hour I will be headed out with Matt, TouchPoint's Community Liaison, to do a lunch and learn with doctors. We will stop at a grocery store to pick up the lunch and when we do I always take a stroll down the candy aisle, but the result is always the same.

As I walk down the candy aisle it is like I am telling myself, "I know I used to find this aisle enjoyable, but what was it?" I'll look at the Skittles, the Starbursts, and I apologize if you now want candy but I will also look over the candy bars with absolutely no interest in them.

This isn't to say that all candy has been banished. I currently have a bar of Lindt chocolate that has chili pepper in it. I enjoy that with a glass of milk, but I eat it slowly at one square a day so this is certainly not like the days of old when I could devour candy bar after candy bar.

Why the change? I don't know because I didn't consciously go, "You know, I think I no longer want to have candy." This is probably a good thing, but every time I go into a 7-11, or a grocery store, I look upon the aisle in awe, much like I did when I was a child, but this awe is an awe of, "What did I like about this aisle? Only if I could remember."

1 comment:

  1. Aaron, if you could figure out just what happened to change your attitude toward candy, and assuming you could somehow teach others the same thing, you would become a billionaire. It sounds to me as if you are more aware of your body than non-aspergers people are, and because of aspergers you listen (even if it is on a subliminal level) to what your body wants. I learned to ignore my body's cues and override my desires so that I no longer feel safe in the candy aisle because I crave it so much.