I feel this is a recurring theme on my blog and I don't like repeating myself, but yet again sleep issues have reared its ugly face.
Perhaps this current bout is being caused by all the stress and pressure I currently feel, or perhaps it is the changing weather, or maybe even it's allergies. Regardless the aggravation I feel is the same.
As I right this on this bright and sunny morning I am as tired as if I had been up for 24 hours. This is how I've felt for the past week at this time, but here's the annoying thing; come about 9PM I will be wide awake and ready to take on the world.
Before I started at TouchPoint these were my normal hours. I don't know, perhaps I am nocturnal and am just denying my true self, well, probably not, but before this job I would be up until 4 or 5 in the morning and sleep until 3 in the afternoon.
Last year, when I started at TouchPoint, I was the complete opposite with getting up at 5 in the morning and going to bed before 9 in the evening. These past few months I have tried to go back to that schedule, but it just isn't happening.
As I said though, before I started my job I would be up all night and this is when my greatest writing occurred. I had so many of my breakthrough concepts come to me out of the blue in the middle of the night. Perhaps there is a connection between my inability to sleep and writing as maybe this shows my subconscious is hard at work devising some better way to explain the spectrum.
While I do hope I can write something beneficial to the spectrum I am still annoyed at the current situation. Last night, after bowling, I took a melatonin and 2 Benedryls for allergies, but they also make one drowsy. That's enough medicine to put an elephant to sleep and yet, while I took those at 9:00PM I was up until 3AM!
The problem currently isn't just getting to sleep, but once I am asleep getting up is a monumental task. There's two reasons for this; first, and most obviously, is that my body is so tired, but secondly the dreams I have during these times of sleep issues are so real and so complex. Also, they are quick. As I kept hitting the snooze button this morning I was having full dreams in great detail.
As I think back to the pas year-and-a-half these bouts of nightly insomnia come and go and I do have some great writings that come from them. Take yesterday's blog post for example, I came up with that at about 2AM Monday morning and wrote it at the office the next morning. As much as I do complain about this it is something that I have learned to accept because of the things my mind creates during these spells. Also, I have learned not to fight this; when I can't sleep I simply can't sleep. And also, this week, the good news is I have two presentations and they are both in the evening.