Okay, this is annoying! I've been staring at my computer screen in my office for over an hour and for the first time in a while I don't know what to write. Granted, I am writing about something, but besides writing about my writer's block today nothing is coming up. I think I've said, "today's blog needs to write itself!" at least five times and my computer, sadly, didn't listen to me.
This is the first time in a long time that I have struggled to think of something but I don't think this is reflective on that I am out of things to say. Quite the contrary actually as I think the anxiety from the upcoming "Autism Awareness Tour of America" is growing by each day. I think it's just 19 or 20 days away and there is still so much to do. Well, I'm not doing the brunt of the work such as lining up speaking venues, but I'm still worried about it.
I think back to when I was younger and it times of high anxiety I often would cutoff all relationships and routines when I was stressed. This was my way to sort of tolerate my environment I think as when I am stressed I don't have my normal ability to handle other situations. Granted, I'm sure this is the same for everyone, spectrum or not, but for a person on the spectrum the effects of this are amplified.
I'll have a small break from worrying about April today as I have three presentations (a new daily record, we'll see how my voice handles it though) and tomorrow I have a 20 minute presentation which will be the first time I have something that short since, well, speaking at the Rotary Club in Vancouver back in 2010. This will provide my mind with a challenge so that will be great and then after that presentation the flag show is back on the road as I drive to Atlanta, or perhaps Nashville and then catch a ride to Atlanta... well, okay, I don't really know what tomorrow will look like either and maybe that's adding to the stress of the day.
Wow, for having writer's block, today's blog post wasn't that bad I believe. Regardless I hope tomorrow's goes just a little bit smoother.