Continuing on the Asperger Everyday string of posts I wanted to share a story from yesterday.
So yesterday I rode to North Carolina with two other people from USAC and an usual thing happened; I came alive. This is something that has always been the case with me as since I was little I always have conversed more in the car.
This was the first time in a while that I had a situation like this and it felt so freeing. The drive might have been long and we might have got in at a very late hour, but I was cherishing every minute as easy conversation doesn't come easy for me.
If I could I would stay in those moments on car rides. Imagine having a situation where things come easier and over processing is minimized. How great of a place would that be? I don't know if I could put words to it but I would do almost anything to stay in state of being.
What is it about being in a car that opens the floodgates of conversation? For me, I think, it the length of time confined with the same people. It takes me a while in a social setting to feel comfortable and
I won't really converse until I am comfortable. Because of this, and just the way socializing works, most people don't give me the time I need. Perhaps that's an unfair statement as it isn't that they are purposely not giving me time but maybe it's more they think I'm not interested in speaking because of the signs I am showing. In a long car ride though there is plenty of time to get comfortable. Also, no new people are going to jump into the conversation. This is an important fact because changing the conversation situation by adding a person resets my level of comfortableness down to 0 and the whole process has to begin again.
So that was my yesterday. Today starts a string of what I think will be five race days in a row. I'm anxious to get home though and next week I've got several presentations across the state of Missouri so I can't wait for that!