Yesterday I wrote about the fiction book I'm writing. I got another 1,000 words written yesterday but today, as I think about the project at hand, I'm feeling a bit overwhelmed.
This is the way I have been my entire life. I'm thankful that while I was writing Finding Kansas I never let it cross my mind that I was writing a book; I mean, I could never have imagined it becoming a book. But this fiction book I'm writing does have a defined beginning and a defined end and the defined end is tens of thousands of words away.
The tens of thousands of words plus plot twists, dialogue, and the constant thoughts of how to get my story from point A to point Q is rather daunting. With a blog it is easy because I have one story a day. At first this whole blog thing was overwhelming and I can remember having multiple sheets of paper in my office with possible blog topics written out. I mean I had fifty or so ideas just in case I had trouble figuring out what to write. Since then the fear and overwhelming nature of writing just one post a day has lessened.
But anyway, big projects have always overwhelmed me because I'm seeing everything at once. When that happens there is no such that as progression because progression means I'm marching towards a goal. This can be done with say, a completion of a chapter, but when everything is viewed at once a chapter isn't even a drop in the ocean because there's still everything else that needs to be done.
I've got to fight this frustration because I don't want to quit with my story. I think I've created a fantastic story that might just be worthy of being a book. But first I have to write it without becoming overwhelmed. If I could only take it a word at a time, but you see, I have to get the main character to this one place, then another, and then a confrontation with this big government type guy, then there's this, and that, and some more of this, and a few touches more of that, and oh my, there's a lot of work to do. If only I could see the project as one word at a time.