In just two hours I will return to the place that my first blog story took place. I have to admit I am a bit nervous as well as I will once again be presenting.
It's been almost three years since I was here and when I was here before I was unsure of myself. I had given one presentation to teachers and about six to police officers. Needless to say I was still a rookie and I didn't know if my words would be heard. It's one thing to speak and it's another thing to be heard.
Three years ago I know I was heard as the Rotary Club sponsored a couple autism guide dogs. This makes today even more nerve racking for me because I want to say the right things better than I have ever said it, but I only have about 10 minutes. What can I say? What do I say? I have so much but to have to think on the fly as to what I say and what I omit has me nervous.
There is also extra pressure because I believe my confidence as a speaker was born three years ago up here in Vancouver. To know I was heard by people that didn't have an affiliation to the autism spectrum meant I must have done something right. That being the case I want today to be just as meaningful, just as special, and just as enlightening.
This is an odd feeling! I haven't been nervous for a presentation in a very long time. In fact, I'm so nervous, I've got nothing more to say about it because I don't want to make myself anymore nervous. I hope I do okay...