Tuesday, October 4, 2011

The Big Day!

OH MY OH MY OH MY! Remember yesterday how I said I wasn't all that excited about today? Well, now I am!

It's amazing to think where I was three years ago and where I am today. In fact, it is impossible for me to imagine what would have happened if you would have told me then that I would be here today.

I guess I need to tell you where I am today. Right now I am heading to the airport to head to New York City to meet my publisher. I'm going into this trip without fear even though when I land I need to call a number to get a shuttle and then once at the hotel call another number to get the cab to the publisher. If you didn't know, I will do almost anything to avoid a phone conversation, but today it can't be helped.

In the realm of major events of my life I am wondering, say in 10 years, where today will rank. I've been to New York City before, but there's something beyond special about today. I could probably write 10,000 more words on this as I'm trying to make sense of it all.

Truly, I don't know what to say about today. Is today another milestone? Is it just another stop on the route of wherever the destination is? I'm not sure. What I do know, however, is that today will further back up my line of, "there's always hope."

I've said this several times this year, but I constantly told my dad that, "There's no hope! What am I ever going to be able to do?" Those were my words after I got diagnosed. I was blinded by the diagnosis and in a way I guess you could say I lost my identity.

It took a while to find myself; 14 months after my diagnosis my journey began. Slowly, one chapter at a time, I discovered a part of myself. Now, I speak on the matters of the spectrum, but on that evening, 14 months after being diagnosed, the journey began. Today that journey reaches a level I could have never imagine, but here it is and I'm on my way.

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