Wednesday, May 23, 2012

After Game

A couple months ago I wrote that Kansas was changing. Following that post games really didn't do anything for me, but when Mass Effect 3 came out I was again was fully enjoying being engrossed within a videogame universe.

I played bits here and bits there as I was on my tour so I just maybe got in 15-30 minutes at a time in the evening at whatever hotel I was at, but I was enjoying it greatly. When I got back home I spent every moment I had at home to play through the story. It felt so great to once again enjoy games, but last week I finished it and ever since then I have been in a minor funk (the ending didn't help anything either but that is not the point of this post.)

I've experienced this many times in my life; when something is so great and then it ends how does one simply move on? I'm sure everyone experiences this, but I think for us on the spectrum we don't hop onto the next thing as fast. I haven't had much time to consider what I should play next, but when I have I can think of nothing because I truly want to keep moving forward in something that is finished.

Perhaps this is an example of transitions being difficult, or maybe I'm just in the void of playing a rare gem of a game that was awesome, but whatever the case may be I am having a hard time simply playing anything. I look at my games and Skyrim is staring at me and the only thing I can say is, "blah" as there's no interest. My mom probably wished that I would have this "blah" feeling about 16 years ago, but for today I'm still in the midst of being in the void of after game and nothing is even remotely interesting.


  1. I had the same experience with Stephen King's Dark Tower series. The Waste Land (III) was my comfort item/best friend for years, and when the seventh and last book came out, I was so excited about it, but it took me a year to work up the nerves to actually read it, since I knew it was the end. I finally did, and it was great... but I was still bummed it was over. I relive it every year and a half or so, rereading the whole series from beginning to end, so that way it has a chance to be new and exciting again.

    I'm a new reader, love your blog--you express things exactly the way I experience them! I have to laugh out when I read something that I've tried to explain before. Keep it up!

  2. I will name a transition that I have dealt with successfully (again it could be something you can learn from)

    Almost two years ago, I graduated with my masters in OT. I knew the time was near as finals week hit. Then at graduation, I felt bad that I might not see some people again. Yet, I was able to cope successfully because I looked forward to the future. This future represent multiple things.

    1. I will see some of my classmates again in conferences or workshops anyway.
    2. Eventually I will get to earn some money!
    3. The "OTR/L" will sound really nice!

    Of course, Facebook and Twitter are convenient, too. So, I get to see what some of my classmates are up to.

    This May, the same feeling will arise for sure... as I will get my OTD. I will call on the first two things I am looking forward to (as #3 has already been done). Yes, I don't like the unknown sometimes. But my positive thinking made life transitions look easy.