Wednesday, July 18, 2012

Being Wrapped Within Kansas

YesterdayI mentioned that I wanted to, for these upcoming three weeks, really focus on how Asperger Syndrome has an impact on everyday events and right after I had that thought I got fully wrapped within a Kansas.

First, if you don't know what Kansas is, you can learn about it in my book Finding Kansas or read about it in my glossary.

Okay, so right before I started packing yesterday I had about 30 minutes to spare so I hopped on the Xbox and started up Bejewled Blitz. It's been a while since I had played but I still am in the #1 spot from when I played competitively.

So yeah, I started playing but instantly I was enthralled with the game once again. I thought I would play one game and move on, but one turned into five turned into ten and before I knew the whole 30 minutes had gone by. "One more game..." turned into ten more games and I was enjoying every second of it.

Kansas' can pop up out of nowhere, but when a random Kansas develops the feeling of sheer bliss is hard to top. Truly, and I probably should have said this a couple days ago on the fact that I wouldn't want to simply be cured of Asperger Syndrome, the feeling of being in Kansas is like being wrapped within a warm blanket on a snowy winter evening. Being in Kansas is one of most secure feelings I know.

There can be a downside to Kansas and that is that it is so hard to leave. I had an interview to get to yesterday but at the same time each one minute game of Bejewled Blitz was the best minute ever. I was watching the clock trying to figure out the last possible moment I had to leave because the feeling was just too great. Eventually I had to tear myself away and that took a monumental effort.

This is the funny thing about Kansas; it can pop up suddenly, without warning, and without any conscious effort and when this happens that Kansas becomes the only thing that matters. Unless you've experienced this it might be hard to comprehend just how safe, secure, and awesome a feeling Kansas is. It's been a while since I've stated this, but Kansas is a great example of, "if you've met one person with autism you've only met one person with autism" because one person's Kansas can be the next person's worst non-Kansas state.

This morning I got in some more Bejewled Blitz but slowly the Kansas faded. This too is the odd thing about Kansas because just as fast as it can appear it can disappear without any effort on my part. Although, come to think of it, I think one more game is in order. Right? Just one game?


  1. Kansas, you just gotta love it. Ah, just a little more than a month before I go to the event that's my biggest Kansas in the year... In the meanwhile, let's work on planning the other events... Tomorrow an appointment for an event for autism actually. I can't wait! Oh, the organising-bliss~

  2. This so explains my Cuyler's "obsession" with's his Kansas! Thanks so much!

  3. My "Kansas" is much related to yours, though it is much more gory. I am addicted to playing games that make my heart beat, but that does not mean I'm still scared a bit of the other games. Puzzle games challenge me, but they lose their "replay-value". The feeling is lost soon after.